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Thursday, October 30, 2008, 4:06:00 AM
they say that sorry is the hardest word.. some say It's easier to ask forgiveness than it is to get permission.. but to me, it's just a 5 letter word.. "sorry" is what we will say if we do something wrong, to make up what we had done.. "sorry" to family, friends, loved ones..
sometimes, apologizing may do the trick,
but sometimes, it doesnt..
saying sorry may make us OK, but we will never be what we were back then..
saying sorry sometimes may not get back what we used to be..
saying sorry is just saying "sorry"..
saying sorry, without looking me in the eye, is just saying sorry to a deaf person..
again, you should mean what you say.. even a thousands sorrys, without having a mean, is just worthless..
it's a 5 letter word, it can mean anything..
never ruin an apology with excuses.. - kimberly johnson
Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 2:32:00 AM
it pisses me off that the fact you lied.. YOU LIED.. you told her that you messaged me to apologize but i didnt replied.. but the TRUTH is, i have NEVER received any of your messages for the last few weeks.. more or less an apology.. you never apologized to me.. it seems that you are trying to make me sound like the bad one here.. so that everyone knows that you are the bigger "guy" and im a heartless bitch who would not accept your apology.. sometimes i wonder, do you really treasure our friendship? if you really do, like how you claimed you were, you would be telling the TRUTH. you would put the blame on me for not explaining to you what was wrong. but the fact is, did you really ASK? when the first time we quarrelled, you asked me what was wrong and i said i didnt want to talk about it. and you just kept quiet.. same goes after that. you will ask once, and keep quiet if i dont tell you. the FACT is, i was mad and seriously did not want to talk about it. you knew that i am egoistic and just keep silent. you were never persistent to know the truth and you expect me to call you to explain?? if you really treasure THIS FRIENDSHIP, you would be persistent in asking what's wrong. but you never did. so why you lied? why you keep on giving excuses.. you really want some proof that you kept on giving excuses? `` CandyMist `` [ Pause And Ponder ] says:
the same day u were pissed with your friend? i did call after that. in fact, we talked on msn the next day. but that next day, u called me few times when i was in class. asked you to call back and you did. but i wasnt fast enough to answer the phone, so jarir did and said "wrong number". i tried calling you after that but i couldnt get through.
`` CandyMist `` [ Pause And Ponder ] says:
the next weekend, i tried calling again and my calls were all rejected.
`` CandyMist `` [ Pause And Ponder ] says:and, next thing i knew, you posted that entry in your blog.
`` CandyMist `` [ Pause And Ponder ] says:
and, jarir thought it was durrah who called. abd his intention was to tease durrah,
`` CandyMist `` [ Pause And Ponder ] says:
*and
yes, i saved our conversation. let me set the record straight. YOU NEVER call me the next weekend.. you never messaged me AT ALL. how the hell you get your calls rejected when you did NOT call AT ALL?
and PLEASE, dont give me lame excuses.. your boyfriend thought it was durrah?? can he mistook DURRAH for NOFA? i called your bloody HP, there is a caller ID. he will know who called. so how can you give me stupid reasons? friends DO NOT give their friends stupid reasons. YOU LIED. YOU LIED, YOU LIED. and let's just settle with that..
Sunday, October 26, 2008, 1:16:00 AM
Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the one I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
-kate winslet's what if
Thursday, October 23, 2008, 1:29:00 AM
ouch.. that was such a blow..do you know how much it hurt?
ok.. chill.. no more tears.. no more tears..no more tears.. no more tears..no more tears.. no more tears..no more tears.. no more tears..no more tears.. no more tears..no more tears.. no more tears..
oh my god, who am i kidding?
the
Wednesday, October 22, 2008, 8:48:00 PM
oh well, that was the most pathetic birthday to date..first, my mood was sort of dampened because of this chicken pox..
chicken pox = no going out = no special dinner = no celebrations = pathetic staying at home, on MY birthday! can you guys believe that??
not only that.. secondly, of course, my exam.. i had to take an exam on MY birthday!!
and i had to travel all the way to margaret drive/queenstown, in this state???
i spent my birthday in a stinking exam room!
i had to spend $50 on cab alone cause there's NO way i'm taking a train/bus with these spots on my face.. $50 is worth 3 days of petrol for jalan raya ok!! that's such a waste..
NOT only that.. oh no.. my pathetic day did not end just like that.. on the way to the exam centre, i realised that i forgot to bring my pencil case... oh god! that was always my nightmare whenever had exam jitters during secondary school. i had no writing material, how THE HELL i have to do my exam?????? and i had to ask the cab driver to give me a pen.. imagine, you going to an exam, with JUST A PEN?? all the way through my exam, i was worried that the pen had no ink left.. AND i had to sit for TWO papers!! at he end of the exam, i realised that the ink was going lighter and lighter... so for the first time of my life, i did not doodle on my question paper because i was scared that i was wasting the ink... then, on the way home, my cab was stuck in traffic.. from keppel road all the way to fort road. you guys know where fort road is? it's around marina.. imagine, from vivocity, all the way to marina.. stuck in traffic, hungry, and sick.. what a shittos birthday!!
BUT! BUT! BUT! the day was save, thanks to betty suarez, meredith grey and susan mayer... yes.. i am such a TV junkie.. oh, i just love tuesdays.. from 9pm to midnight..
my night started with ugly betty, then, season 4 grey's anatomy, and ended with a bang with of course, desperate housewives.. thank you technology!!
quote from Gio's ugly betty (oh, i love it when Gio said to betty):
"i don't want to be the rebound guy, i want to be THE guy"
excitingORwhat???
but betty looks better with henry, don't you think??
Gio looks more, i dont know, rebellious for our good citizen betty..
Monday, October 20, 2008, 1:04:00 AM
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, What a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way, About me
It's just too much
Just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we could be
Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
'Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But i know this crush ain't going Away
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging,
Spending time
are we just friends? Is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this
Into something that'll last
Last forever
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I've just got to know
- david's archuleta crush.
Saturday, October 18, 2008, 11:17:00 PM
well, what's been done, been done.. and there's no point brooding on it much.. let bygones be bygones...oh well, life's been so freaking pathetic..
i woke up on monday, 13th october, and suddenly felt so cold.. so i guessed that i would probably be having fever at that point of time.. not enough with the fever, i still went to school.. yes, i went to school.. because i thought, i had skipped a whole load of classes so i really need to go to school..
in school, guess what guess what??? i got a really sucky faci whom i just wanted to slap that irritating bitch.. urgh..
i realised that i suddenly had this pinkish spots on my face.. uh-oh..
went to the doctor, he suspected that it may be chicken pox because my dear cousin, aiman had it a few days before hari raya and he sneezed right in front of me so u do the maths.. he told me that more spots and rashes may come later on.. and if it does, that means it's chicken pox.. but if it's not, well, you know what it is.. and the next day, i woke up, guess what guess what??? i got more spots on my face!!! why oh why??? why does it have to be on my face???
and the spots continued to appear on my body and face as days go by.. it's been 5 days now, and i guess there will be no more spots coming out left.. so my only problem right now is to make all these spots dissapear.. i nearly cried when i looked at the mirror because my face had never been like this.. i never had any acne before and pimples only come out about one or two small spots each time.. imagine all these poxes coming out on my face.. my oh my.. im still on medical leave.. im left with 5 more days..
oh, but look at the brightside of it, at least, everyone's been pitying me.
i told my mum i was craving for chicken porridge, and she bought for me..
i told kona that i was craving for tom yam ban mian, and she visited me the next day and brought me one bowl of ban mian.. power or whattt!
and my dad's not in singapore right now, he will be back tomorrow, and i told him to buy a list of stuffs and he didnt complain!!
the little brat's been helping me with small and stupid stuffs, like fetching and getting stuffs for me.. and he's finally scared of me. he wont touch me at all ok.. haha..
and one more thing, five whole days at home now, BUT, i dont have to do any chores.. hee.. coolORwhat..
and i think In loves me and wanted to make my day, so she changed my blogskin.. everything.. and i love it.. love it love it love it..
well, i got to give her credit right???
Thursday, October 02, 2008, 3:38:00 PM
goodbye past....
HELLO future!!!
HELLO future!!!
