CAUSE YOU'RE AS CLOSE
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Thursday, November 29, 2007, 10:59:00 AM
sometimes i wonder whether you are worth the waiting.. worth the suffering...but sometimes, i just don't care... i'll wait.. i'll suffer..
Tuesday, November 27, 2007, 9:59:00 AM
Im sitting here Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well boy im not alright
Feel out of place and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (You only)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you, God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life
and i can't be without you baby
Monday, November 26, 2007, 3:23:00 PM
rara and fyda have been telling me that i have this murderous look when i am alone.. why they say this was because Rara's friends, whom i have met a couple of times were intimidated by me as i will not smile whenever i am alone or something..one of her friends told her that she wanted to say hi but decided not too as i had this very don't-mess-with-me-i'm-pissed-off kind of look.. as if i want to kill somebody.. funny right..
and fyda said that i will always frown when i am not in anyone's company but immediately change when i see someone i know.. i will be frowning one minute and smiling broadly from ear to ear in another.. like split personality.. that was why i will get some weird looks from some people when i am at the interchange or in the MRT..
why i always frown when i am alone is because i always listen to my MP3 so when i listen to certain songs, i will be very pissed off for no reason.. songs like never again, usah lepaskan, holding on and all those very depressing kind of songs.. the songs remind me of the past and i will be frowning when i listen to these kind of songs..
but on the other hand, when i listen to songs like teman istimewa, hate that i love you, babylove, i will smile and sometimes even blush as it will remininsce some good memories or just makes me feel happy.. what i meant by good memories are basically infatuations and obsessions.. haha..
so when you guys see me outside, don't feel intimidated by my expression as i am very friendly inside.. yeah right... haha..
Beatific HodgePodge
Friday, November 23, 2007, 3:05:00 PM
you never appreciate what i did, you never say thank-you.. you never realized my sacrifices... you never did...Thursday, November 22, 2007, 8:48:00 AM
ok.. im supposed to focus on the UT that's starting in a few minutes time but i just can't help it!! i am too excited.. so i just got the email.. they replied me back.. and......... IM GOING!!!!!! yes.. so i'll be collecting the tickets at tampines mall as it is the nearest to my house this sunday... so 16th dec, boy lollipop, HERE I COME!!!!!
Wednesday, November 21, 2007, 3:49:00 PM
my grades for last week, week 8.. urgh... blame it on the food poisoning.. i was absent for almost the whole week.. came halfway on monday so that explains the stupid C... 
oh.. so you found someone... and left me here all alone???
and bitch, what he said or did to you was what he said to me... haha.. i've talked to him longer and i know him longer.. no use blogging about that stupid stuffs. i have experienced more than that, bitch.. been there, done that... and who's the first one he called back then???
2:19:00 PM
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile?
But you won't let me
You upset me boy
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget that I was upset
Can't remember what you did
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss..
and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
As much I love you
As much as I need you
As much I love you
As much as I need you
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so
boy lollipop, this is for you... *drools*
Tuesday, November 20, 2007, 4:07:00 PM
yesterday was the best day EVER.. from the first infatuation to the other.. from one boy lollipop to the other.. oohhhh... i just love eye candies.. HAHA..saturday, youth park.. dengan secara kebetulan repackaged.. anyone going??
emailed, waiting, waiting, and more waiting.. oh how i hate them...
just one reply and boy lollipop, here i come..
cramps just now, presentations right now, home later.. can't wait..
re-vantage on thursday people! don't forget to collect yours if you haven't.. south agora, lunch time..
7th dec, beats encore concert.. looking forward to it.. can't wait to see syidda and ima performing... going with rara, fyda, nadiah and fam... thanks nadiah for the ticket!!! love you dearest...
oh oh, 6P now... faci looking at me.. *smiles sweetly to faci* *looks at the powerpoint* * back to blogging* HAH...
music, music, music.... listening to hate that i love you... boy lollipop, this is for you...
oh, this is the most random post ever..
end of post suckers... blergh..
ciao..
Monday, November 19, 2007, 1:28:00 PM
been sick for a week... that's the reason for the lack of post..wedding, apart from the food poisoning, everything went well.. including the 3 outfits in 4 hours kecohness.. the three of us, wearing red, took many pictures that uncle auk commented, "asyik2 muka dia aje..." bad uncle.. and the photographer, "macam gini kena charge lebih for the extra film" hmph.. =P
ape saje..
and the bhangra was unique and cool...
bash on 16 dec... can't wait..
oh, that is so random..
Wednesday, November 07, 2007, 12:57:00 AM
ok.. you can see my tagboard.. it's been tagged by "taufik batisah".. so the real question, is it the REAL taufik? if it is real, how the hell did he found out about this blog.. weird huh? and taufik is under artiste network, not mediacorp.. so how can i believe this thing? is it a hoax? well, if this "taufik" can prove he's the real one, then i'll believe..
nights people... tomorrow, outing with W35J to seoul garden.. se you guys there!
Friday, November 02, 2007, 4:16:00 PM
haha.. the little brat is coming home tonight... he better buy something for me or i will skin him alive... haha 10:45:00 AM
had another nice dream last night involving the same significant other... again, PLEASE DREAM... pleaseeee COME TRUE... maybe i think about that someone too much.. that's why..kona accompanied me yesterday to enrol for my BTT.. it will be on the 13th of dec.. starting from the next two weeks, my weekends will be filled with classes...
so next week, term break... outing with w35j to seoul garden and movie on wednesday.. swimming with the bunch.. wedding on sat and sun..